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Post by Krovennan (Quaketread) on May 1, 2017 8:40:31 GMT
So another election has come and gone. As is the running theme, I am second, and Backbeat is now re-elected. It's at this point I wish to announce my resignation from the site.
Some people are gonna call the timing of this petty, and maybe it is, but I cannot do this any longer. Through the years this site took up a huge amount of my time and energy, and recently it's only gotten harder. When you're in this position, you're expected to make big impacts and big changes, but my hands are tied at every turn. Between every idea having to come with caveats, the abuse I have had to deal with for being one of the few who did their job in a moderator role that has no actual weight and the endless demands for my attention, even during terrible personal times, I've been worn out.
I've had sleepless nights and actual physical sickness from my trials on this site. Every day I wake up dreading what has happened while I'm sleeping, I get up, I check everything that has been said and I try to bring a little order, a little sense to everything. I check my notifications to see if someone has brought something to my attention, someone wants me to send an Apocalypticon somewhere, or the staff wants to clue me in on the next plotline and it's always dead silent, even during the recent site events I've been out of the loop and expected to accept what's handed down to me. Then at the same time, when there is a problem, no-one does anything and it's brought up to me. I'm caught in the middle and I'm tired of having no teeth to do anything about it.
I've been on this site since it's inception and was one of the first RPers on TFU. I've seen every leader change (or lack thereof) and been under the whim of every Decepticon Leader we've had. Now we re-elect Backbeat, the guy who tried to kill my character cause he wouldn't give him an item, the one who threw super-weapon after super-weapon at the site and helped turn Earth into a barren wasteland, removing the "Disguise" part of the Transformers motto forever in a world where realistically Humans would be near-extinct. That has resulted in a terrible environment for RP, where we just bridge in, smack at each other, blow up some buildings, then bridge back to our bases full of PG-13 sex and posturing on who is the most badass, and I'm sick of it.
I am also tired of constantly coming second. This time I had a plan, I had everything set up and as usual, I come up short, and I'll be second in the next election, and the next, and the next, never reaching that peak that I need to put those plans into motion. As long as I'm second place, those plans will never come to fruition, scuppered before they're even fully thought out by people who don't want anything to change and to never be presented with something that might challenge them, while simultaneously screaming in my ear for that very same thing.
Well this is now my limit, my ability to withstand all this has been spent and I realise now that things aren't gonna get better like this, so I have to leave. As far as the RP goes, my Apocalypticons may be considered MIA. The Discord I'm leaving to Shadow-Strike, you may fight amongst yourselves for that. And since I'm leaving, Gnitav I guess is now SiC of the Decepticons.
I don't know if I'll ever come back to this site, so until further notice, I can safely say goodbye forever.
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Post by influx on May 1, 2017 12:32:35 GMT
Waving goodbye
I'm a relatively new member, and I never got to know you as well as I would've liked, because I would have honestly liked to get to know you better, and maybe roleplay sometime!.
However, I just wanted to say goodbye in case you see this, and tell you I honestly hope things in your life, irl or otherwise change for the better, and that you are happier ^^.
Goodbye Krovennan!, I hope you have a fantastic time, and that if you ever come back, we become friends ^^
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Post by Backbeat on May 1, 2017 19:37:06 GMT
I get that you don't like me... I'm fine with that. But I'm sick of you and other people blaming me for every petty thing you can think of. You want to know why I had to pull out super-weapon after super-weapon? You know why I did that? Because THAT was the only way to get the Autobots to stop hiding in their base! Sure any decepticon movement would get small responces from the more dedicated of Autobots or new players... But those veterans inside the base living their damn sitcom lives?! Anything less than a possible end of the world and they won't do anything. Meanwhile the Deepticons had to contend with countless new players trying to take over five seconds after joining. So the only way to maintain some semblance of order is to keep everyone focused on a big battle and pray no one looks behind the damn curtain. Every Decepticon leader has some version of this. Shockwave had science weapons and mind control, I had doomsday weapons and the "citizens of the world speech", and Deathwish had Russian land wars. Also those that want to throw the ruining of the environment, we all need to admit no one, Autobots and Decepticons, cares about the Earth. Every time I pulled a doomsday plot I tried to give the Autobots every opportunity to prevent damage, some tried too, others ignored it and went back to the violence. So not just me... Team effort on that.
Which brings me to my second bit of rant, your "I am also tired of constantly coming second" bit. You honestly would have run if there weren't just two factors, your attitude and your lack of activity beyond the baseline. I get mod duties come first, but you could have said your overworked and needed help. That's ok. But as with every-time I or others I know have tried to talk with you, you act like a smug control freak. Always raining on other's parade then wondering why no one votes for you. I the mod life wasn't doing it or you needed a break, just tell the other mods your going back to being a regular user. Being a mod is not a life sentence... You are free to quit and play on the site as a normal user. And blaming the community cause you've bitten off more than you can chew isn't cool. "Things aren't going to get better" not cause of some nebulous time, but because you couldn't admit you couldn't do everything. Real life takes priority, if you wanted to continue playing this game you should have quit being mod, if you wanted to be a mod, you should have accepted you wouldn't be able to play
So with that bombshell, I say this. I'm sad to see a good RPer go, but if your scheduled can not handle it I understand.
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Post by Thunder on May 1, 2017 19:37:30 GMT
'Tis a shame you're leaving, friend. I liked the idea of raiding the Autobot base and really shaking up or completely destroying the status quo.
Farewell.
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Post by Lord Death Wish on May 1, 2017 21:54:11 GMT
Honestly Krove, I don't blame you in the least. How Backbeat was picked for leadership again is beyond me. I respect your game Krove, and what you bring to the table. I was hoping you would be my successor because I knew at least you would keep the goal of a Decepticon intact. Thank you for what you did to help the Cons during my time as leader, sorry I left how I did, and good luck to you in the future.
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