Post by Slackjaw on Jan 12, 2016 4:21:10 GMT
Okay so I know I just recently started using this website again, but I've come to a breaking point with my feelings.
These last couple of weeks I've had very complicated emotions involving just about everything in reality. I have a permanent fear of guns and now they cause me anxiety just in the presence of one, I've become numb to my damn grades because I did so bad last semester because I was stuck with a set of terrible teachers, and I've become scared of reality and everything around me with the constant feeling of impending doom.
I know how dumb it sounds, because it sounds dumb to me too, but reality bit me in the ass the other day and now I'm paranoid and think strongly on everything I see on social media. The world we live in is a hell masked by propaganda, hate, sex, money, and power. We point out celebrity flaws because celebrities are expected to be perfect persons with beautiful, symmetrical faces and pounds of makeup to cover the real human being underneath.
We create rumors to humiliate people and lead to self hate and anger towards one another. We label law enforcement as power-abusing bullies that only shoot colored people because racism was a thing about sixty years ago.
Who's going to remember you in fifty years? The man or woman at the office chair holding up the business in which he or she works in. Sadly, even I think I'd only remember the man who counts his grands with his feet propped up on his employees' backs gaining all the praise because he's the one with the big bucks.
I know this is mostly a rant, but putting it short, I'm going to take a break from social media. It's infecting my personal life, and for the first time in my life, I was scared of myself.
I, for the first time, had the idea of committing suicide with the thing that scares me the most. Besides, who would ever want to live in a world like this.
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Enough ranting. You get the idea. This is probably just me going through a stage and I'm just all emotional and having problems, but for now I'm just taking a break. Not just from here, but everywhere.
--Hannah (Steel)
These last couple of weeks I've had very complicated emotions involving just about everything in reality. I have a permanent fear of guns and now they cause me anxiety just in the presence of one, I've become numb to my damn grades because I did so bad last semester because I was stuck with a set of terrible teachers, and I've become scared of reality and everything around me with the constant feeling of impending doom.
I know how dumb it sounds, because it sounds dumb to me too, but reality bit me in the ass the other day and now I'm paranoid and think strongly on everything I see on social media. The world we live in is a hell masked by propaganda, hate, sex, money, and power. We point out celebrity flaws because celebrities are expected to be perfect persons with beautiful, symmetrical faces and pounds of makeup to cover the real human being underneath.
We create rumors to humiliate people and lead to self hate and anger towards one another. We label law enforcement as power-abusing bullies that only shoot colored people because racism was a thing about sixty years ago.
Who's going to remember you in fifty years? The man or woman at the office chair holding up the business in which he or she works in. Sadly, even I think I'd only remember the man who counts his grands with his feet propped up on his employees' backs gaining all the praise because he's the one with the big bucks.
I know this is mostly a rant, but putting it short, I'm going to take a break from social media. It's infecting my personal life, and for the first time in my life, I was scared of myself.
I, for the first time, had the idea of committing suicide with the thing that scares me the most. Besides, who would ever want to live in a world like this.
--
Enough ranting. You get the idea. This is probably just me going through a stage and I'm just all emotional and having problems, but for now I'm just taking a break. Not just from here, but everywhere.
--Hannah (Steel)